Its Been A While

at the moment, my life is everything i have been hoping for. im happy and looking forward to the future. scared, of course, but i cant do much about that. life is amazing and i am thankful to be where i am today. i graduate in 2 weeks... its such a scary thought but i know i have so much ahead of me. a few weeks ago at work, i was talking to a very old woman and she was telling me about her life and how amazing it had been. as i said goodbye to  her, she told me to "have a wonderful life". I had never been told something like that before in such a serious, yet, cheerful tone. it was something i thought about for a while. i was trying to understand her. i know it seems like something minor, but it ran through my mind for days.
the words that she had said to me were so shocking and it definitely caught me off guard. i didnt know what to think. those few words that she said to me will forever be with me because of the way they hit me. it made me think about life and how long it is. i want to do the things that i want before its too late. i dont want to regret not doing anything. anyway, my life is at an incredible point right now and i can only hope it stays this way :)

Just Saying

Its funny how the things you thought you needed most evolve to nothing.

The things i felt like nothing without are forgotten and the people that meant the most to me are nothing to me now. The ones that let me down are the ones that arent worth my time anymore. you meet new people and time goes on. i forgive too easily. carrying a burden of anger is only a waste of my energy. theres only one exception to forgiveness that i have and he knows who he is.. (rot in hell, bastard ;)) life is full of lessons. sometimes we dont bother trying to understand it but other times it can be the greatest thing. it just depends on how well you work with what youre given.