to me, my family is all i know. i have them for sure and they arent going anywhere. they are gonna be the ones that love me no matter how i look, what i say, how dumb i act, or when i mess up. ive always been the one to stand up for the things i believe in. sometimes a little too harshly, but thats okay. it never mattered what the outcome was. blood always comes first. im not afraid to lose anything when im standing up for my family. i just dont understand how someone can side with another person who isnt even related to them. how can that person side with their boyfriend when he talks shit about her own family? i honestly just dont get it.
over the past year i have watched my relationship with my sister slowly evaporate into nothing. ive tried reaching out to her. yeah, we fight a lot. and we say hurtful things to one another but i do love her. i just dont like the way things are going for her right now. i wish she could see into my eyes. and everyone elses. maybe she would see that there is so much ahead of her. so much life and experience that she isnt going to have if she is with someone who cant even be just a genuinely good person to her. my opinion is biased, but im going on what i have been told directly. i wish things would just go back to how they were before boyfriends were even in her life. sometimes its really hard to be in a house, 5 feet away from the girl ive known my whole life and not even say a word to one another. tears are swelling up in my eyes thinking of how good things used to be. and what really sucks is that out of the 2 of us, im the only one that sees things this way. as for her, shes blinded by the truth. all i can do is hope that one day the different paths we are currently taking in life will lead us back together because all i want is my sister. i want my best friend.
