In all honesty

I have never been so content with my life. I'm so happy right now

I dont know

I dont know why its so hard to forget the things that hurt us. its one of the hardest things to do. why would you want to remember the pain that someone else caused you? you dont... so why cant we just forget? my days are running together now that school is over. the only thing getting me through the days is knowing that i have another one ahead of me. another day that has potential to be the best day i have had in a while.

Surprised

I'm shocked at how good I feel. Things are finally going my way

Okay

I wake up everyday feeling one step closer to normal again. I woke up this morning and I actually felt good, despite the fact that I only got 5 hours of sleep. Oddly enough, I felt okay. And somewhat happy... Understanding and forgiving. Everyday this gets easier. And even though the thought of what happened still hurts me, I have to let it go. It's gonna take a while, but it's the only thing I can do. Holding on to the past only makes moving on harder. At this point I don't really care about how things happen for you. You made the choice you did. And that should've been the point that I stopped it all... But I didn't. It might have taken a while after, but I did it. I did what I wanted finally and I felt relieved. A weight was lifted and I switched gears. To moving on; like i told you. And that's exactly what I'm doing.

How I feel

I think i am the most ignorant person that i know... i am so busy trying to find the good in people that i overlook the bad. Dont try and use me or take advantage of me. Ill call you out on it. Seriously. Who do you think you are? I am finally realizing that i am not in the wrong here; YOU ARE. and im done feeling sorry for myself. who i really feel sorry for is you. you are so full of shit. every single word you have said to me these last 2 months or so have been nothing more but bait to lure me into you. im glad i told you i was done. im glad its over for good. and even though it may be one of the most difficult things i have faced in my life thus far, i will be okay. i will get over this and be myself again. im not gonna let you steal my happiness or my life. so go ahead and have fun with your fucking 15 year old girl toy. i hope you realize what you lost. if you dont know it now, you will. i can promise you that. peace out sack of shit.

Too much

Too much has changed for me

I dont know

I dont know anything right now. I dont know why these things keep happening. I dont know where i can find answers. I dont know how i can fix this