yeah

do you ever think about how much things have changed? not only in a person, but in life too? do you ever see yourself and wish there were things you hadnt done because they arent who you are? i hate some of the things that ive done. i hate that i cant change anything. its one of the worst feelings.but i guess i have to live with it

In the Bahamas. Its sad to think a lot has changed since then too.

Changes

I think its funny. How much youve changed. How you arent the same person i knew. The choices you make. The one your with. Everything. You arent the same person. You are a stranger to me. Maybe one day you will see that what you are doing is wrong and that eventually you really arent going to have anyone because all you do is push people away and focus on one. The decisions you have made recently truly make me wonder what goes through your mind.

I have tried to understand you and make ammends, but nothing is ever going to change. Not now, at least. Youve pulled us apart. My family. and you and i. No, you dont see it. And you wont see it. Youre a liar and your word doesnt mean anything to me anymore.

Think about he things you have done this past year. Analyze yourself. And then tell me you havent changed.

Im concerned and i care, but i have done my part. All i can do now is wait.

And the sad part is:

you will never see it. youll never see how mean you are because you are too full of yourself and too busy dogging on other people (me) over the internet. I really couldnt give less of a fuck what you think. I have reasons for everything i do. And just because i told you i wasnt rooming with you doesnt make me a bad person. It also shouldnt have made us stop being friends. But i dont really mind it. Maybe one day youll realize that no one is perfect. Including you.

Honestly

I think you need to realize that YOU are NOT innocent in this. Im getting really sick and tired of coming to find that you have been saying more shit about me on the internet. REAL mature. I made the choice i did because you are a mean, mean person. And honey, i can promise you that im not the only one that thinks it.

HAHA

you are the perfect example of immaturity.

blinded.

to me, my family is all i know. i have them for sure and they arent going anywhere. they are gonna be the ones that love me no matter how i look, what i say, how dumb i act, or when i mess up. ive always been the one to stand up for the things i believe in. sometimes a little too harshly, but thats okay. it never mattered what the outcome was. blood always comes first. im not afraid to lose anything when im standing up for my family. i just dont understand how someone can side with another person who isnt even related to them. how can that person side with their boyfriend when he talks shit about her own family? i honestly just dont get it.

over the past year i have watched my relationship with my sister slowly evaporate into nothing. ive tried reaching out to her. yeah, we fight a lot. and we say hurtful things to one another but i do love her. i just dont like the way things are going for her right now. i wish she could see into my eyes. and everyone elses. maybe she would see that there is so much ahead of her. so much life and experience that she isnt going to have if she is with someone who cant even be just a genuinely good person to her. my opinion is biased, but im going on what i have been told directly. i wish things would just go back to how they were before boyfriends were even in her life. sometimes its really hard to be in a house, 5 feet away from the girl ive known my whole life and not even say a word to one another. tears are swelling up in my eyes thinking of how good things used to be. and what really sucks is that out of the 2 of us, im the only one that sees things this way. as for her, shes blinded by the truth. all i can do is hope that one day the different paths we are currently taking in life will lead us back together because all i want is my sister. i want my best friend.