To A Friend:

This one's for you.
mistakes are made. words are said. are they meant? are they worth the pain you cause another person?

If i could pick one thing that I've learned throughout high school and my current course of life, I'd say that words are powerful. The way we say them, who we say them to, and the specific words we choose to use. I've made plenty of mistakes and I am not afraid to admit that. I think about my life everyday. I remember the decisions I have made and the way that I have treated other people. I KNOW that I haven't been the best friend I could have been and I know I have used words that could have been replaced with other ones. I just finished reading a book that very frequently used the term "R & R". It means "rephrase and repeat". I definitely could have done that many times by now. Anyway, I guess what I am trying to say in this specific blog is that I know what I have done. I know that I have been a bad friend at times but that never meant that I didn't care. I'm not afraid to admit to the wrongs in my life. It's much easier that way. I've been in an argument, disagreement, whatever you want to call it with a friend of mine. I considered her one of my best friends. She did put forth the effort whenever we hung out. I didn't.  I think my problem was that I never knew how much of a difference it made if just once I had been the one to make the effort. After me and my best friend of 11 or so years stopped being friends, it was nice to have that one friend that I could tell anything to. That is exactly what this girl was. She was always there for me to make me laugh and cheer me up. I could tell her anything I wanted and she'd keep it locked in the depths of her soul. I thank her for that. I hope she has read this far because I want her to know just how much I value/d her friendship. I never wanted to let her down. But I did. I've let a lot of people down. And I apologize for that. I'm in no way perfect and I am so very far from it. I want to start over. Here is to a new beginning. A new me. It's never too late to make a change in your life. So this is mine.
-Taylor