Why cant you just tell me what it really is that you want to say? Whatever it is, im sure i can handle it. You tell me one thing but do another. I thought i was worth the truth, but apparently im not.
People tend to run away from the truth. They run away from how they feel and who they are. Thats the easy thing to do. But why is it so difficult to confront the truth? Yes, sometimes it hurts, believe me i know. But eventually, you get over it. It becomes something that you dont care about anymore. I recently put my trust into someone that i thought cared, and it just got thrown back in my face... why? I cant answer that question. Whats even worse is when that person lies about why things have been distant. "Im busy", "crazy week", how about you just be honest? How about you stand up for once and tell me what the real problem is. Ill find out sooner or later. Im sure its just that you dont want to talk so just say it. Dont be afraid of "hurting" my feelings or whatever. Thats nothing compared to what ive already dealt with in the past.. either way, i'll hound you for an answer. I dont like to be left hanging and thats exactly what is going on right now. I'm not really "hurt" by it, but im just angry. Im angry that i let myself feel something again. Im angry that i trusted him. Im angry that i let him in my life the way that i did. It was too fast and i guess that is why all of this is happening right now.
I sit around, waiting for your "busy week" to be over with, but really im just hoping for something that wont happen. Sadly enough, as i sit here and wish i had you, youre not even thinking about me. But hey, thats life. Lucky for me, i've learned to not linger on things that i cant change. All in all, lying isnt something i admire about people. What i do admire is a nice, honest person who isnt afraid to just say how they feel. Maybe one day i'll actually find someone like that, but in the mean time, im done trying.
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